Well, my quandary over what to do was resolved today.

My old neurosurgeon’s office called today to get information about me for the study (artificial disk replacement). I informed her that I don’t want to be in the study.

She was taken aback by that. I don’t think anyone ever says “no” to a thing like that.

But with my past history with his office I just don’t feel comfortable under his care. I feel that he has lied to me and put his own advancement above my health. He’s broken promises and given me different diagnoses with nearly every visit.

Hopefully everything will go better with the new neurosurgeon.

In totally unrelated news, tomorrow is my annual review at work. I’m not expecting much… I’ve been on heavy medication for the last 7 months and haven’t exactly been performing my job very well. I have a thinking job, and it’s hard to think with your in either complete agony or so doped up that you can’t function.

Of course, that doesn’t stop them from loading on the assignments. I shouldn’t bitch, at least I have a job, but it seems that the worse I feel, the more projects I’m given.

*sigh*

Well… that’s enough of the pity party for tonight. Tune in tomorrow: Full frontal nudity is a promise!!